YTuesday, October 31, 2006
Halloween rocks!!
Check out the photos on my friendster ok? i am too lazy to upload them again here man.. maybe when i have more time or something. http://www.friendster.com/2619465 I will blog about it when i m free. Anyway it rocks!! Thanks Pegs, Sindy, Melvyn and everyone who was there! it was such great fun... I am so glad i went. muacks!
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YThursday, October 26, 2006
Time flies...
Its been more than a month since i posted. yet, it feels like only yesterday that i came to blogger and typed in my entry. when school work is piling, there is almost no time for anything... on several occasions, i want to add in my 2 cents worth or incessant ramblings here, but the fatigue took the better of me, and i decided to retreat to my humble cove, and slp... Zzz.
Well, have been rather stressed out about internship for the past couple of weeks. It was horrible. going for interviews, waiting for results, and then knowing that i got rejected. there is this feeling of disappointment, no doubt. and this feeling completely overwhelmed me. it got so bad that my self esteem decreased by the day. i kept asking myself, "am i not better than others?" "am i that bad?" and i could not find the answers to my questions. these thoughts enter my mind and refuse to depart. for most part of the day, i end up stoning and staring at the computer screen in front of me, lost for words...
things have picked up over the past week. i felt better and got over the whole issue of being rejected. well, things happen for a reason, dont they? maybe it IS a blessing in disguise. or so i hope. :)
Today is GREAT. After class, Colin suggested that we go for Sakae Sushi Buffet again!! Weeee!! we just had that like, 2 weeks ago? hahah. see, thats the reason why my waistline is expanding. Boohoo. BUT, we had lotsa fun! 9 of us in Sakae, laughing, stuffing ourselves with hand rolled rice, and talking in between mouthful of fried gyoza. The experience is always one of joy and laughter. I love it!! Everyone who was there has alot of fun. Weee! After that, me, mj, hsu and colin went to bugis. the 3 gals went for some pampering while colin went to meet his friend. MJ and I did classic manicures! Yay! I love it! Hsu trimmed her eyebrows. so fun! I love my nails now. i came home and pasted some nail art stickers on my nails to make it even prettier. haha. today is FUN. Thanks my dear friends! Oh, Jen came too! havent talked to her for soooooooooo long. Miss u jen!!
Homework wise, there is alot to do for photojourn. Dr Shyam asked me to reshoot a few shots. i feel that my photo story is not very strong as compared to the others. its up to my captions, text and layout to bring out the story. Jiayou!!! wow, photojourn is alot of work but its really fun. at least, i enjoy what i am doing.. :)
as for editing course, there is this HUGE assignment due next fri, and i only remembered it today. oh man. luckily its a grp project. for this type of last min work, grp projects-- WELCOMED ANYTIME. yup, 4 brains are better than 1 shrivelled one.
media management class, presentation on thurs. i need to prepare a 1.5 min speech. intended to do it todday but i am very tired. i guess i can only do it tml. gotta buck up!!
mmm... sch is ending soon. which equals to exams coming. there is still alot of work to do, but i have to take it in my stride.. alright, i guess i have to buck up!! :(
Things with him aint good. having alot of arguments these days.
I think he doesnt care enough,
He says i am overly paranoid.
I say he is too aloof towards me,
He says i complain too much.
I ask him to talk on the phone with me,
He replies: "I hate to talk on the phone."
I told him i am a dependent gal, i need him by my side,
He says he is stressed out by me, he needs a break.
"Maybe we should just break up." He said...
i dont know what direction this relationship is taking. it just feels so rocky at the moment. i just feel that we dont communicate enough, but to him, it seems perfectly fine. I mean, we only meet once a week, and he doesnt want to talk to me on the phone at all during the weekdays when i m in hall. THen our relationship is just based a weekly meeting? I hate it. i hate being together with you and meeting u only once a week. Its like, whats the point?? i really cant take it anymore. and he only msgs me like a few times a day. i really hate it. and when i feedback to him, he says i complain too much. i dunno. i dunno what is going to happen to us. i look at the other couples who communicate every night, and i feel so envious, jealous. how i wish he will just pick up the phone and call me. i miss the good ole times we had. but not anymore now. these days are filled with arguments and arguments and arguments. maybe what he said is right, maybe we shd just end it here...
bye.
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